Speaking of Calculus, I swear I've forgotten everything I've learned this year except all the basics. We've been having little tests on Mondays and Fridays and I've failed most of them. My grade is around a B or B- right now which is the worst grade I've ever had in a math class. It's rather disappointing. Yesterday I had a big test on integrals, and I'm 99.9 percent sure I failed it. And tests are worth 70 percent of our grade, so I'm afraid I might fail the class. And if I fail, I won't graduate because I need every single credit to meet the requirement. Plus, the AP test is on the 5th next month, and I'm totally not prepared!
I've also got a paper to write for Literature for a Changing America, and I need to start on the My Voice Project soon. Not to mention all the packets for Current World Problems.
At least Early Childhood Education and Exploring Art are way easy, and I don't have fourth period classes. I would be even more over-loaded!
It wouldn't be quite so hard if I didn't have Alexander to tend to. I have to feed him every two hours, and he's been extra cranky lately, so it's hard to find time to do my homework. My mom has helped out a lot, but it makes me feel like I'm pawning him off on her. And I know he's my responsibility, so that makes me feel bad. So, over all, I'm pretty stressed out!
I've also been trying to exercise to lose my baby weight, but I definitely can't find much time to do that. I mean, I lost most of it already without exercising, but I've still got some love-handles and a flabby tummy. I used to have really bad self-image issues, and they're all coming back. It makes me depressed, and I hate feeling like that.
But in good news, Nate is going to fly out here for the summer on the 7th next month. So, that's pretty exciting. There for a while we were having some problems. I'm not sure if they're exactly resolved because there's not much either one of us could do about it, but everything seems okay between us. I'll just have to keep my fingers crossed on that one.
At this rate, I'm not sure how I'm going to make it through college. My teachers have made a few exceptions for me when I wasn't able to get things done on time, but they're not going to be so lenient in college.
Maybe I'm freaking out a little too much, but it's pretty hard trying to find a way to balance everything. At least when Nate gets here, I can pawn Alexander off on him without feeling bad so I can get stuff done. Haha. As Daddy, he's just as responsible for him as I am. And I'm doing my part in preparing to support him in the future by trying to graduate on time!
Well, Alexander finally fell asleep, so I'm off to work on some more homework. Laterr.
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